Sometimes i wonder...

Do you blame me when you're in his bed lending him my wife's body and heart?

Fairy tales and happy people...

I've finally figured it out...
Why i allways end up alone and driven by sorrow...

When i think about it... i've always been a fan of fairy tales...
And i wanted to live my own fairy tale...
And that is exactly whats going on...
Thats why i end up depressed and crying...
And that is also why i always end up atracting people to my life...
The thing you've always hated about me...
Its not like i do it because i want to...
Its because happy people are boring...

Let's take the movies and fairy tales as an example...
All the story moves around the drama and sadness, the fights...
And most of the times it ends with the "happly ever after"...
Why is that... Because there is nothing else to tell after that...
When people are happy they become boring and if we really think about it...
We are often atracted by troubled people and we try to confort them more that we are atracted by those sweet happy couples...
If we have this love triangle... we will always feel pity for the one who is left suffering...

So since i've always wanted my life to become a fairy tale...
I guess... that i will never have my happly ever after...
And i understand now why it ended up like this...
When i was with you... i've became happy thus becoming boring too in the process,,,
And that is why you've left... because...
The same way i got atracted to you... the way you are... and atracted by your pain and sorrow...
You got atracted to me in the same way... we were suffering and unhapy therefor interesting...
Once i've become happy by your side... you've lost all your interest...
And now that i'm sufering again... you remembered why is it that you loved me...
But thinking like this scares me the most...
Because i've never though of you as being boring... did i really never made you happy after all?