What is wrong with me...

I used to laugh all the time...
Let my mind fly and imagine...
I used to wake up filled with strenght
Knowing that someday something would happen that would change my life...

Not anymore...
What is wrong with me...
I can no longer fight... i just keep falling down regreting mistakes from the past...
I just keep losing sight of everything...

Every night i think about the past with no future on my horizon...
And all the crossroads i've reached through my life... is it possible that i've taken all the wrong paths?
I remember how it used to be so simple to be happy...
And how i lived filled with hopes...

What is wrong with me...
As time passes by and i'm getting older...
There are no more reasons to smile... to fight or even to live...
And even when i think about how my life could change... i dont see a solution...
No more crossroads... just a straigh line towards the end...
And this straight line goes on forever...
Its a one way road so there is no turning back...
Its a neverending road so there is no where to go...
I can't help but wonder...
What is wrong with me...
If even my words feel empty and do nothing to ease my pain anymore...
Why? Maybe beacuse i know no one will ever read it... or at least... care about them...
Or maybe... in the end... im just going insane...
Am i really that broken?