Every day i wonder...

Do you know i am still waiting...
Do you even think about us and coming back anymore?
Every day i wonder...

Nothing else to lose...

I hope i wont wake up tomorrow...
For this was the day i lost everthing
My heart faded to pain and sorrow
By your knife that let me bleeding

You took me everything in this final bout...
And God... how it hurts so damn much
Even the tears dont dare coming out
For the destruction in my heart is such...

I don't know how to differ lies form truth anymore
And it doesn't matter since i was just a pawn
So life took it all... not for now but forevermore
As i die alone in the floor without anyone

You ask me for forgiveness... what do i have to forgive
You took everything from me... my love, my family
Even after i've given you everything i had to give
So now without any hope in me... i shall meet my final destiny

Within my hand i had the power to destroy everything for you
Like you did with me without even thinking twice or look back
I could at ease take everything you believe and think its true
And stand watching you crumble as your world fade to black

I could expose to him all the lies...
Por fool living blindly in ignorance...
No need because you'll broke the ties
Once also he loses his importance...

But i wont do it... even driven by pain...
Maybe i'll just drown in a bottle of booze...
You may ask... Why? What will you gain...?
And then i aswer... What do i have to lose?

Am i really that wrong...

On a rainy night i though with my heart
Too high of love and magic and you...
Only to see myself break and falling apart
Knowing my dream will never come true...

And so days, weeks, months and years
Will keep on pass by me at high speed
As my heart gets beated down with all my fears
As this world planted on us a demon seed...

And i believed, smiled and reborn again
Thinking that true love conquers all
And in my heart nothing else but pain
Without anyone to catch me when i fall

So the only thing left is a question i ask
Was i mistaken about a feeling this strong
Is it to be happy such an impossible task...
Answer me... Am i really that wrong?

The last true idiot...

That's me...
The last true idiot...

Lieing to those who've threaten me just in order to keep your image...
Lieing to everyone for your own sake...
Just because i love you...

Swallowed my pride, my honor and my self-estime...
Why?
Just so you get mad at me like i'm doing everything wrong...
And then...
At the end of the night...

You cry for me...
When you are in these arms you say you love me...
Not just with words...
But with your eyes...

Still you say you can't stay right now...
How can you not?
I don t get it... and its killing me...

You say you'll comeback in a few months...
How can you say that... how can i believe when you said you would've come back that week...

It was a raining day...
I still remember it like if it was yesterday...
March 11th... The day i though too high of love...
I exit my job to find you as you promised...
I runned and seeked for you everywhere...
In the end... i've just waited...
You came in and smiled at me...

But everything was diferent...
You say you love me... it was true...
So I cant understand...

Why do you take a path that even you say its going to be worthless...
Why do you walk a path that you know it will end soon...
And it will only hurt us more...
Me... You... And our family...

Am I really the last idiot...
'Cause i've allways knew when you were lieing...
I know when you have no hesitation in your words...
And you know that i know...
So...

If you don't hesitate in saying...
I love you... I want to marry you... I want a family with you... I will come back... I am sorry...
Why do you hesitate in make it happen...

This is far greater that this world... this story of "us"...
Outsiders think they can understand... but they know nothing...
And once again here i am... Having to fight for what is mine... while others take it away with almost no effort at all...

By the time this story ends... i will be a Legend...
A legend of love...
Now... will it be because you've stayed after i've waited and fought so hard for us so that we became happiness itself...
Or will it be because in my last breath... i will just say... "i forgive you... i'm still loving you..."

I've endured so many lies from you... so many humiliations... scars and pain...
I've endured so much that i've even lost the sight of your true self for a brief moment...
But this feeling... it pushed me right up...

So this is me... with everything crumbling... with almost no strenght left in me...
With everything that surrounds me falling apart...
This feeling is the only thing keeping me moving...
This feeling is the only thing worth waiting or fighting...
Im am still here... The Last True Idiot...
That still believes that love conquers all...
The Last True Idiot...
Who will wait for his "One"
The Last True Idiot...
That in the end... will do anything he can... to make you as happy as you'll ever be...

And if you don't come back... as you say everyday you will to me...
I will die fighting... for i cannot aford to live without thee

...

O dia virá em que tudo fará sentido...
O dia virá em que tu abrirás novamente os olhos para veres a luz que te guia...
O dia virá em que te darei a mao e brilharás de novo...
O dira virá em que me olharás nos olhos e dirás:

"Amor, voltei..."

A hora que não chega...

O tempo não quer passar
E eu fico aqui no desespero
Na esperança de ter ver chegar
Para ao meu coração dar sossego

Sabes que de ti necessito
Mais do que do ar para respirar
Para que este conflito
Em meu coração possa cessar

Tu es a minha princesa deusa
A unica do meu coração
Que me enfeitiça com a sua beleza
Que é a minha doce tentação

Mas será coisa assim tão anormal
A perdição em quem mais se ama
Se com uma força tremenda, brutal
Cada pedaço de mim teu nome chama

Saudade do teu abraço e do teu beijo
Saudade de te dizer o que para mim és
Saudade de te dizer o quanto te desejo
Saudades de me ajoelhar a teus pés

E agora o relogio parado me tortura
Enquanto esta dor me consome, me cega
Choro um pouco mais lembrando com ternura
Choro aguardando a hora que não chega...

I know we could...

There were times that we punished each other
And times were pain was what we gave birth
But there were times when you were my lover
And i was the happiest man on the heart...

I know we hurted both of us so much
But there is also one other thing i'm aware
The love and magic we feel is such
That you'll never find it again anywhere...

Our foolish mistakes we should bury
And our deep scars we should heal
Because there is no room for more fury
In this unstopable love that we both feel

And i thing of us both starting again
From the very begining that we should
With only love we will abandon all the pain
Come on my Princess i know we could...