How long has it been

How long has it been...?
Since i last saw you?
Since we are far apart?

I can't even tell anymore...
But somehow here you are again... Lingering around in my life...
And foolish me... wanting to run after you once again...

I can't... I know i still love you... i allways will...
But i must keep my self away somehow... i don't want to get hurt...
Not again by you...

That i would not be able to stand...
That would destroy me far beyond repair...
I've become a twisted person...
With feeling that no one could ever aim to understand...

I've lost the hability to love someone else but you...
And i've failed miserably to move on...

I see you in my dreams and everywhere i go...
And even my guitar... my faithfull companion betrays me with thoughts of you...

And yet again... a simple "hello" from you makes my heart rush
Pumping blood as lightning speed through my body...
My hands start to shake and it gets harder to breathe...
Everything gets messed up again and i dream of being together with you once more...

You've really damaged me...
You broke me... and yet... i still love you... i still want to be with you...
And even saying i wont run after anymore...
I know that at the first glimpse of hope...
I will fight to my last breath once more to have you in my arms...