What does one do?

What does one do when he has lost everything...

When he can no longer tell whats real or not...

What does one do when he has lost everything...

Has fallen hard to the bottom of the pit...

And when he is trying to get up...

He is faced with choices, and things that he cannot tell if they're real...

What if those things are just what his heart wants to believe...

If he sees only what his eyes want to see...

What if he really embraces that reallity in hope of being happy somehow, someday...

And that reallity turns out to be an ilusion...

What if reallity is an ilusion...

What does one who have lost everything do... if the only way out...

If everything he wants to believe... its just another prank from destiny...

Would he stand to lose everything again?

Will he really lose anything? Did he even had anything?

What does one do?

I do not want to discover that aswer...

Day by day

Everything is crumbling day by day...
It really seems nothing makes any sense...
You're gone and i feel you so far away
I feel like a dog traped within a fence...

How long can one endure the pain and sorrow
To be alone and lost in this loneliness
How long until it opens my door for tomorow
How long to be lost in the darkness?

Im lost... and If you ask me who am I...
I dont know the aswer anymore
It feels like if every single time i cry
Deep inside I die a little more...

They say one's eyes reflect his own soul
And my eyes used to show my flaming heart
But now their lost their bright to a shadow ghoul
And they now show my soul breaking apart

Bad Timming...

Its not that i can't apreciate a good laught...
Sure it was fun... i ended up laughing...
But the scars this little prank are going to leave...
Hardly worth the time i laughed...

So yes... It was fun somehow and I laught about it...
And i never backdown from a challenge specially when i'm suspicious...
But even though I laught and it was the right play...
It was also the worst possible time in my life to do do it...

Ordeal of Love...

So my final battle as finally began
For I have chosen my ultimate path
For my legs, oh they won't run
Now i'll face it with my last breath

Loneliness fills my heart at night
As your sweet voice i hear no more
This desctructive distance is the fight
That with my might i must endure

We will eventually smile again i guess
It doesnt matter how much the time flies
Even if my soul and heart become a mess
This feeling is one of thoses that never dies

If only I could fly to you, I love you i would shout
And if i can hear you say that you love me back
I know that i would be without a trace of doubt
The happiest person on the face of the earth

You left in my heart not a scar, but a mark
And i hope that one day we will rise above...
Above all of the things that pushed us apart
For us i shall face the Ordeal of Love!

Time flies...

The time flies and the contempt i feel for mankind grows bigger by the second...
I look back thinking how life can be cruel...

Somehow nothing seems to make any sense now...
And for moments it all seems so far a blur...

Those times... i miss those times...

A day has 24 hours... way too much time for someone who is alone...
Those who run from their feelings allways end up alone without even notice or understand why...

Thats what happened...

No every hour feels like a week with me trying to fill it somehow with things that doesn't seem to fit at all...

And as the biggest fool there is... even now that you are so far away... i still dream...
I still day for the day of your return...

Even though i may be distant and act like if i dont remember you or care at all...
Even after all this time and everything that i was trough...

I do still care...
I dont ask you to understand nor try to do so...
But i'll tell you... The mark you've left in my heart was so strong...
But it was not a scar... even though it hurts sometimes...

It hurts almost all the time... but its not a scar...
Just a mark... the mark that allows me to know that you were real
The mark that overtook my will...
The mark that locked my heart... and i may lie to anyone it doesn't matter...

Be sure of this...
It doesn't matter how the time flies... On the day of your return i know that you will see...
I've may done so many things, told so many lies... but you will always be the true holder of the key.