I was smiling...

The day that my world stood still...
I was smiling...
In my heart despite all the pain and hatred i had hope...
Somehow... i was smiling...

Somehow i thought about it in a diferent way and i was decided to put my heart and soul to a final test...
But i wasn't expecting what was yet to come...

Naive... I was smiling...
So the day passed by with one thing one my mind... The thing i wanted the most...
I would've fighted for it with all my might...

Therefor... I was smiling...
Once again... I was smiling... And on the place where once seemed to be an endless hole...
My heart started to warm up once again... Somehow the pain and sorrow faded and my lips where able to smile once again...

Naive... I was smiling...
Until the shocking truth came like thunder piercing the last piece of armor my soul and heart had remain...

The world stoped for a while... Somehow what did all the sense before... it vanished...
The joy and hope i had... turned into disgust and hatred...

I felt ashamed of myself for being so naive... i really was smiling...

And now that nothing is left for me...
There is only one thing that comes to my mind when i cry...
I was so young and i was smiling... I was only 24 when i died...