Loud silence this one...

Why is it that you dont call me anymore...
You don't look for me anymore...
I stand alone waiting for you to come...
To hear your voice...
But this noise drives me crazy... its loud...
Burning my ears...
Its the most painful sound i've ever experienced...
The sound of this loud silence that your absence left me with...

Sometimes hear your voice would be enough...
Enough for me to rest assured that i am still alive...
That you are still alive...
I know sometimes that your read what i write...
And then finally the phone rings..
And between the words of your text...
I realise that you allways misunderstand what i wrote...
Allways thinking the worse of me...
Allways thinking that what i wrote is something to attack you...

So i would like to hear your voice...
And make clear to you what i meant...
But this noise drives me crazy...
This constant and loud silence...
My head hurts... my heart burns...
All i wanted was to hold you close...
And never again let go... but you can't see it anymore...
As if what we had was corrupted to its core...

Don't you understand... I am still here...
Remember when we came back... how i hold you that night...
Near the river... and cried... i was hurt by the time we passed apart...
Remember how we managed to be happy... how you've made me smile...
Then once again between your choices and my frustration we've hurted each other...
And broke apart once more...
I dont want this...
Its not the life im looking for... And neighter is the one you wished...
I know... I know you...
Can't you see... what i wish for us is to start again...
Leave our mistakes behind...
Remake our fairy tale with our happy ending...
The ending only us can achieve...
Forget our mistakes... I allready did...
Forgive us... I already had...
Come into my arms... for you know... that you will never find something like this...
Its our story... our fairy tale...
To be together... the tree of us...
To watch you fall a sleep while i hug you...
Close my eyes and enter the dream world embrace by your skin...
To the sweet melody of you breathing...
Forget everything... I allready did...
I don't care about your sins... i just care about you...
So please kill this loud silence... and let me hear the smile on your voice once again...
Forever. You... me... V.