Powerless

Today i made a promise to myself...
The promise to take another shot at my happiness...
Another shot of being happy with you...
So I called you... and we were suposed to be together...
But life has other plans so it seems...
And for you... it seems im no longer a priority...
But when i think about it... i never was...
Everyone and everything comes first...
So you canceled our plans...
You've canceled my last shot at happiness...
What can i do... I'm really powerless...
Im powerless against this feeling...
Im powerless against the chains that keep me stuck to you.
Im powerless against this emptyness that you allways leave in me...
Im powerless against fate that allways trick me into failure...
I fell like another piece of me died yet again today...
My mind is scattered and filled with insane thoughts...
Somehow i still manage to block everything that goes in my mind from coming to be in the form of actions...
I dont know for how long...
I feel like im in the verge of death... My mind shows me death all around me...
Disgust... contempt... for all that surrounds me... For everyone that surrounds me...
I see people reject what i want the most... I see people destroy what i allways wanted to build...
And little by little i see my self throwing away my life...
Im powerless against this mind of mine...
Im powerless against the feelings in my heart...
How long can i manage to keep them from being...
How long can i mantain my sanity...
Why isnt there anyone to hear me screaming...
If i am surrounded by people... Why is it that no one sees...?
Why am i so alone...?
Why dont you see?
Why dont you care...?
Why is it that no one helps me?
I feel like it is almost too late...
And im powerless to change this fate...