Please

Hearing all the indiference in your voice...
After all that we've been through...
After you asked me what you had no right to...
And even then... i did what you asked... I've waited...
I'm still here...
All that was suposed to break us apart is now solved...
But as i heard the indiference in your voice...
Maybe it was not solved the way i hoped...
Maybe the barrier between us was just replaced by another one...
Somehow... in your words... i couldnt find any hope...
So once again... as many other times before...
I cry... Where are you? You said you'd wipe my tears...
Where are you...
Everytime i search for you... Im lost in my thoughts...
Will you ever come back?
Why can't i feel it anymore...
Even with all the barriers... you used to somehow give me hope...
It didnt happen... And i fell a new barrier rising up...
I would not stand another stab to my heart you know it... i know it...
What are you doing...
Was it really all lies and games?
Was i really just a pawn... and not the king?
I can't help but to fear...
Fuck this... Fuck it... Fuck it all...
Why is this happening... Why are you torturing me like this...
Do i desearve it?
Are you having fun...
Can't you see my life lingering around you...
My voice calling your name in your sleep...
I trusted you... even when you did not desearve any trust...
Will you really go away forever this time?
Just stay... please... stay...